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| Mini photo shoot on the beach today! |
So
this week was heavy to say the least haha... with all the struggles I've
been having I've been getting so much great advice and love from so many
people in my life. I am so blessed.
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| Morgann in her natural habitat haha! My comp has only been to the beach twice! IN HER LIFE This is going to be a weekly thing. |
I really have felt like its been one thing after the other for a few
weeks here, from family problems, to discouragement and hardships in the
field, to heart break, and sickness all with in a few weeks... but if
there is anything I've learned from it all, it is the fact that life goes
on... and nothing is going to change the fact that I am here on a
mission on the Lord's time not mine... when I accepted my calling to be a
missionary for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints I
sacrificed my own time for these 18 months to SERVE, to WORK, to SAVE,
and to FOCUS. And even though its freakin hard... sometimes I just break
down and cry. I know that I can do this. And that God knows my heart
and knows my situation and He is by my side 100% of the time. An elder
who served here in playas a few years back has reached out to me and
taken the time to help me, befriend me, and give me some sick advice. He
wrote me an email this week in reply to my cry for help after feeling
so crushed. Among soooo many other great words of advice he ended his
email with this, "'I can skin a buck, I can run a trot line, (and I
can learn Spanish, and teach and preach, and all around kick butt) and a
country boy (girl) can survive." - Hank Jr." How perfect is that? For anyone who knows me, knows that this
is perfect. Shout out to Josh Mundy for the perfect pick me up!
My
daddy didn't raise me to be quitter. And ya'll can betcha sweet butts I
aint gonna quit! Bring it on Satan cause this country girl aint givin
up! In fact she's just gettin started!
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So this week I've changed little things trying to
better myself as a missionary and become more in tune with my calling
here. Like from wearing my ugly sister missionary walking shoes and not
my toms, and studying just a little more in depth, praying more
sincerely. The little things really do make a difference. It's important
that as missionaries we don't forget our purpose... or that we even have a
purpose. Its hard when we do the same thing everyday, sometimes we just
get in routine and forget why we are here. We lose the feeling and
drive to what we are doing. So I've made it my goal to not let that
happen. To stay focused and to work as hard as I possibly can to win
this war against Satan and bring Gods children back to him as I
promised.
So I have a bit of big news for ya'll... I'm going to write my journal entry that I wrote on November 23rd 2013.
" Wow... today is Saturday, November 23rd and I have just had the most
amazing experience with personal revelation. I'll start with what
happened yesterday. Yesterday, Friday, November 22nd we had interviews
with President Dennis. In my interview President told me that he wanted
me to map out my life. To focus on what I needed to do to become a
successful mom, and wife. He told me he had been thinking and praying
about me a lot, and kept asking what can Hermana Younce do when she gets
home so that she can find her nitch, so that she knows she has worth... He then told me he wants me to study when I get home and that he thinks I
would make a great nurse. At first I was shocked. But the more he
talked about it the more it grew on me. The whole bus ride home I was
imagining myself as a nurse. And I started to fall in love with the
idea. I came home that night and asked my Heavenly Father what he
wanted me to do with my life. What plan he had for me. Beauty school has
ALWAYS been my dream since I was in the womb. But right before my
mission I started to get the feeling to keep an open mind about my
future while I was gone. So I did.
This morning (Saturday) I decided to study further and ask my Heavenly Father specifically what
he wants me to do. I made my prayer veryyy specific. I asked what path
he wanted me to take so I could be a good mom, wife, and successful in
my career. After I finished that prayer I read my patriarchal blessing. A
few things jumped out at my but nothing strong enough to take as my
answer. After I finished reading that, I knew I could find my answer in
the scriptures... I prayed to know what scripture to read. I was looking
at the tabs on the side and felt the need to read in D&C, so I did. I
read a scripture that talks about missionary work and working hard to
save the souls of all man kind. At first I thought, maybe He doesn't want
me to know right now? He wants me focus here. But then I had a feeling
that, that wasn't my complete answer... So I shut my scriptures and held
them closed between my two hands, tabs facing up. And I prayed sooooo
hard. Asking the Lord to open my scriptures to my answer, to what I
needed to know. Am I going to be a nurse or am I going to be a
hairdresser? With every inch of my faith I have running through my body,
my eyes shut as tightly as possible, I relaxed my hands, and expecting
my scriptures to just flop open immediately, there was a stillness... I
kept my eyes shut as my scriptures gently opened to a page, I opened my
eyes... it was turned to the topical guide... The first word I read on the
page was "health". and at the top of the page in the corner where the
guide for the words are, was the word "hear". The scripture reference
under the word "hear" was "they heard the voice of the Lord…" my
stomach sank... I gasped and bursted into tears. Not because I was sad
but because I knew my Heavenly Father was listening to me. I knew He
knew what I needed to do with my life and He loves me enough to reveal
that to me. I immediately started to pray and to thank my Heavenly Father and to ask him to bless me with peace and comfort if this is what
he has planned for me, if this is my answer. And that is exactly what
he has done. There's a lot to look into for this path I am going to take
and nursing school isn't the cheapest on the chart, but there were two
answers to this remember? I need not forget the first part, in D&C. I
need to still work super hard here, focus here, prepare myself here,
and if I do so The Lord will bless me and make all things possible for
me."
...............Surprise Mom and Dad! :) Love you all! Have a great week!
My comp enjoying her first oreo with peanut butter! She loved it!
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